a tough day at home..
my nose cannot stop running.. its been the whole day.. and it has been following nonstop.. its quite irritating btw.. hahhaha.. ah well..

i think its just sinus.. it keeps following water.. it doesnt even contain any phlegm.. but it just wouldnt stop even if i practically slept the whole day right thru for today.. ah well.. poor nose.. hahha.. :D

my room is messy again.. who is willing to help me pack my room.. wahhahah.. :D



yesterday at pool try-out
guess wat.. the sports club ppl ask me whether i want to join sports ball pageant.. wahahhahha.. so happy right.. hahahah..

some lame sports pageant.. better not say tt.. wat if i go and join.. lol.. dunno la.. i m starting to get really vain man.. oh dear.. stop it!!!

i m sounding like a bitch..

anyway.. back to life.. yesterday after pool try-out.. kimsong, huizhen, bas and alvin n of cos me.. we went to eat dinner.. at scotts shopping centre.. hahahha.. how boring.. all becuz bas doesnt want to eat at crystal jade cuz its too ex for him.. lol..

afterwards, we had a super long talk with bas abt his relationship but he refused to budge.. ah well.. i bet we are just too kpo.. hahahha..

last outing with my secondary school frens..

it was too fun man.. love it.. we talked and gossiped.. yes i know its wrong.. n i started it somemore.. oh dear.. think i will get struck down by lighting.. haiz.. but i repented.. i shall be more careful next time.. :D



hair...
guess wat? i just changed my hairstyle.. new one.. nv seen b4 one..

dunno whether i look like auntie or what.. i got ceramic perming.. which are curls.. dunno whether is it supposed to be spelt like tt.. waste a fortune on stuff..

i m starting to become a spendthrift.. eh.. stop.. u ppl out there.. dun say.. "aiya.. weiying ar.. rich right.. waste so much money.. such a waste of money.. when u dun even go and earn money.. want to become so rich tai tai right.."

alright.. ppl.. i dun really want to waste money also.. its like once in a lifetime k.. and its like the ever 1st time i ever stepped into jean yip.. now it sounds sua ku right.. hahaha.. well well.. so i fixed my hair.. it really is expensive.. better take gd care of it.. but den got diving.. so quite hard.. cuz all the sea water.. sure out of shape in no time.. haiz.. sadz..

i m so broke.. haiz.. i feel quite bad..

btw.. things are starting to pile in church.. have to prioritise once more.. now i have dance, pa, jym, connect + sch is starting very soon.. which means i m going to be super stressed.. oh dear.. how to cope man.. i really have to pray abt this more seriously.. have to give up sth.. have to.. definitely.. or else it is called SUICIDE..



busy...
wah.. from this month onwards.. which is july.. its going to kill me man.. busy.. busy..

123 july ----> pre-camp chalet for dive camp
6 & 8 ---> pool and theory session
789 ---> some youth conference thingy
11-15 ---> dive camp.. wheeee....
17-25 ---> sipadan... wheeeee.... i must make sure its the best worthwhile trip ever.. lol.. :D
27,29,30,31 ---> dance prac dates + dance performance dates...

wah.. this month is killing me indeed.. busy busy..

i hope i managed to do sth to my hair tmr.. hahhaha.. then tt will be great.. :D



i am a bad sister
reprimanded by my sister.. she said "so christian can say bad things abt others la"...

oh great.. back to the horrible sq 1.. as if i can help it tt i like to scold her.. that i cant help it tt i m human.. and all she can do is to do tt to me.. sorry sister..

much as i hate it to say.. even though u caused me to think.. ah.. watever.. i m in bad mood now.. super bad mood.. watever la.. i m bad la.. stoopid la.. idiotic la.. me la.. happy? whatever la..

try and tell me tt when u become a christian..



my stoopid idiotic sister
right.. this post is dedicated to my idiotic sister ---> TAN WEI CHONG

That idiot sister of mine.. she asked me to go down to eat sth.. in the end, she ate finish the whole thing.. wat an idiot..

pissed...



back from chalet
i just came back from chalet at pasir ris.. it was really fun esp the wild wild wet.. hahhahhaha.. i love it esp when u play with kids.. they so love the water.. hahhahah.. chongky, min, me and jo jo(the extra) ---> hahhahha.. anyway it was really fun..we started at late noon like abt 3pm and so we only spent like 1 and a half hours there.. so short and waste money.. rushing to go for the pck musical in the evening..

u wont believe who i met at the pck musical..

i saw joshua.. can u believe it.. wah seh.. i saw him with eleanor.. i dunno her though but i know who she is la.. but he didnt see me.. until we happen to meet at kallang mrt station... so it was like "WHOA!!!" i cant believe it la.. after so long, God then showed me him.. i mean.. why now? if it isnt now, probably i will really go up and slap him in the face.. just for the thrill i guess.. so boliao.. cant believe it myself.. hahahhaha..

i was happy.. happy to see that he is also happy.. i guess.. i was with lawrence then too when we chanced upon joshua.. so weird right.. ha.. nothing much to say though.. ha.. weird.. its really weird.. weird to see him again..



new blogskin!!!
call me temperamental then.. hahhahaha.. cute skin right.. i dun really love it la.. but its cute anyway.. so anyway its time to change also.. gets pretty sianz staring at the same thing over and over again.. :D





favourite pic now.. so cute.. :D hahhahah.. looks like me? heh.. 



prophecy?
prophecy tt is bothering me or sth deeper???

definitely sth deeper.. uncle boon cheang mentioned tt i have the gift of prophecy if i know how to exercise it properly.. WHAT?!? *shocked.. whoa.. wait a moment.. a prophetic person.. whoa.. where did that come from? nv in my life i thought i will have the gift of prophecy.. maybe sth else.. like being a pastor's wife is just as gd.. but prophecy.. tt is really whoa.. oh ya.. he asked me whether i speak in tongues and whether i was baptised in the Holy Spirit which none i have fulfilled.. well well.. tt is shock..

but such shock causes me once again to reflect upon my life.. on how sinful my life is.. clouded with unclean thoughts, actions and speech.. ah.. my life is in a ruin.. seriously.. to receive tt gift.. life must be holy.. how man.. i m like in the dumps like wat u will call "shit".. sorry to use tt word.. but it really best describes wat i really feel..

struggling.. i cant let go.. dunno wat i cant let go.. relationship? pride? sin? the fear of being used mightily by God? i know God is powerful.. i know if i accept what is from God, my life will change radically.. but i cant even take tt step of faith.. i cant.. i cant!!! i dunno why.. i just cant la.. i have been just struggling for like the past few preachers + past few altar calls + God's prompting.. all i refused.. i just refused lor.. i m seriously in deep s***

i just cant la.. i dunno wat is holding back.. i think its my life.. the way i live my life.. shouting at ppl at home like anyhow i want.. being mean to ppl like saying they are very irritating.. hated it when the happy island ppl didnt like wat i did.. relationship also got big problem.. loads of rubbish here and there..

actually its just me la huh.. all this while, its not like God hasnt been speaking to me.. i just refuse la.. haiz.. i give up!

coming to the crisis of belief.. i still cant.. cant.. even though i told God i surrendered.. bad..



cell group outing
i nv knew cell group outing could be so fun..

the bunch of us went to settler's cafe today.. wow.. its seriously a great place to hang out man.. esp the amount of games they have man.. its countless.. so fun.. everyone is like playing so happily and stuff.. of cos i love tt place man.. we sat there and played 4 hours straight.. free flow of drinks and free flow of games ----> $6 expensive? i also dunno leh.. but i think its really pretty fun.. so fun.. hahhhahhaahah.. :D

i was wondering whether the dive team will be interested to go.. can play games also.. well well... see whether they will be keen next time.. must be more happening.. hahhahah.. :D

yay i enjoyed my day.. playing games.. hahhahah..



back from camp..
yupz it was fun.. so long haven been doing land activities.. abit strenous for me.. abit cannot take it.. hahahhahha.. but nonetheless, it was fun..

my muscles are aching.. haha.. the climb to mount panti in kota tinggi was fun.. esp at the top where there is this steep cliff which we had to climb up.. it was really a challenge esp when the youth group has tiny ppl.. abit hard to climb up when legs are short.. but almost all of them managed to climb up the last bit to reach to the top.. the walk up was quite easy except the climax.. the last bit.. i liked it alot.. :D

besides that, there is abseiling, rock climbing.. other smaller activities like spider web which i so dread it.. hahhaha.. its over played.. plus there was rafting.. it was pretty fun.. cuz we were really trying our best.. esp when the water is like so murky and dirty and stuff.. but it was fun too.. hahha..

oh ya.. i had to thank God for this man.. cuz i had no leech bites.. when like there were a lot of leeches crawling all over mount panti.. whahahhahha.. and i didnt fall too.. wheeee.. except probably a few knocks here and there.. which is not a surprise.. hahaha.. :D

and all went well.. managed to know the P6s better.. which was really great.. i m sure all of them enjoyed themselves a lot.. it was a great trip of bonding!!!

btw i still love the sea more.. cuz its much easier... hahhaha.. :D



stomach aches a lot...
i dunno wat is wrong with my stomach.. have been having diarrhoea for 3 consecutive days.. i think my bowels are going to burst.. plus more boils... ah... this is terrible..

and no one bothers.. hahahha.. pathetic me.. well gotta take care of myself then.. sometimes being too over dependent is not gd.. hahah.. :D going over to malaysia tmr.. i wonder if my stomach will get well soon.. doubt it.. hahaha.. but i will once again prove tt i shld be able to get over it.. hopefully.. hahaha.. :D



busy holiday...
so busy.. i cant believe holidays are even busier than school life.. at least its interesting, i suppose.. haven undated for quite a long bit.. :D

anywayz, having church youth adventure camp over at kota tinggi.. hahahha.. it shld be fun.. :D cant wait.. got abseiling, my favourite.. hope everyone gets to try and not chicken out.. oh ya its from 3-5 june..

i wonder if i shld consider going for perhentian to go diving.. it sounds super fun la.. :p its from 9-12june.. wah.. my holiday is packed with holidays.. den my mother mentioned about going to malaysia KL at later in the month of june.. wah seh..

plus got dive camp 11-15th july.. oopz.. so many activities.. :p but its fun.. i know.. haven get exhausted..

oh ya.. btw my sister was supposed to be sick these few days.. but she is like missing from the house lor.. nv rest then keep going out.. weird girl.. dunno like tt how to be healed faster..

yupz tt is abt it.. watched a super nice show on monday.. my boyfriend is type B.. so funny.. i love it to bits.. hahhahhaah.. so romantic.. ah hahahhahhaha.. :D