God's plan..
sometimes i wonder why did i ever receive yet another sms from joshua..

but now i know..

at tt tues night, when both of us were upset by different matters.. one was shocked about what was said about joshua.. the other was depressed abt the msg.. but two of them have the same mind.. they managed to go through this ordeal planned by God.. how wonderful.. both of them got the answer on this wed night.. so funny but yet so precious to both of them.. cuz they realise how the sms has brought them closer.. n thus strengthen their relationship.. how wonderful.. よかった。

now i know.. God wants me to realise that some things are really worth waiting for.. :D God will always give us the best.. n not the second best.. rmb? おぼえますか。



boredom + slacker..
i m seriously bored.. today is the last day of the week for me.. tmr no sch.. fri is gd fri.. hahha.. den easter... wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.............................

later still got dance somemore.. i cant wait man.. hahhahha.. :D so fun.. i m so sian.. the downloading for tt anime is so so so slow.. sian... hahah..

just blog for fun.. see how life is so boring.. i shld spend some time studying.. urgh.. bye...



chongky's grand concert
the passage of time makes ppl forget things/memories easily.. according to ebbi(sth)'s bell curve.. wahahahah...

yest, went to see my sis perform.. it was wonderful.. even though there are bound to be mistakes here n there.. but i m proud of my sis.. i can now understand what chong felt when she saw min perform confidently on stage.. tt is what chongky did.. so proud of her.. wah.. i could feel my tears welled up in my eyes.. u may think this is kua chang.. but tt is really wat i felt.. so strange.. nv really think chong is anything big.. hahahha.. u know well, sis.. but she was performing her best.. i could feel it.. i could even feel her nervousness.. maybe i was the one feeling nervous with her.. hahahha.. but nonetheless, congratulates chongky.. nice piece.. i like tt song.. hahahaha... play more at home for me to listen ar.. :D cheerios..................

well both of my sisters so musically talent.. wat can i say.. i m so useless.. wahahahha.. but know what, i have found my interest.. tt is dancing.. yay.. hahhahah... cant wait for easter to come.. anxiety n excitement building up for performance... :D



i did this when i was super bored..

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee..
finally finished my 2 tests for the day.. no more tests.. wheeeeeeeeeeee.......... no more papers.......... wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......... hahhahaha.. sorry for those who are r rushing like mad at this pt.. well..

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........................................................

n guess what.. law sent me home when my dance lessons finish.. wahhhh... dance lessons are so draggy.. it ended like 1030pm.. but despite tiredness, he still sent me home.. so touched.. this morning was supposed to be a surprise.. hahhahah.. to eat lunch with me? he waited outside the lt.. but alas, i got out of the lt earlier than usual.. didnt see him.. whahahahha.. well well.. in the end, i had to eat lunch alone.. n watch him eat.. hahhahaha.. :D well.. but all is well.. law is so so so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttttttttttttttttttt..............



brain failure to recall..
ever since i started my week of continuous studying, i m still unable to memorise the chapters.. sad.. cannot.. how to pass.. urgh.. trying my best to rmb, but i wonder if i m able to recall..

i think im super stressed.. my brain cannot take it liao.. i think i shall do sth enjoyable.. jappy.. :D

n why m i bloggin.. back to studying.. NO LIFE...



terrible..
absolutely terrible.. now really.. everything is really going wrong.. all the time.. as usual.. as always.. just now the post i wrote, didnt get publish n i saw the stoopid webpage tt says u need to refresh yr page.. urgh..

now i have to repeat myself all again.. wat a bother.. just to repeat to myself how terrible my life has been...

just received a mail from OSA.. guess wat.. says tt i haven paid my hostel fees and will stop me from registering my modules for next sem.. wat nonsense.. idiot.. OSA seriously needs some brain washing n clean up.. i think i need to complain.. wat stoopid welfare system.. giving me so much problems.. dunno whether the staff are sleeping or awake.. i m sick and tired of this.. urgh.. idiots..

just today, i realise tt my dbs was lost.. wah seh.. now more senile problem with me.. senile is getting in... plus i nearly lost my pouch the other day when i left it in the toilet.. m i tired or just mad.. out of my mind... i m so dead.. seriously... so dead.. n i m just so sian...

what is wrong.. i hate this..

btw the tagboard is also not working..

double URGH!!!

going back to reality.. i just watched hitch but its not as gd as cartoon aka anime aka "howl's moving castle"... wahhahahhahah...



starin at the com screen..
i think i m seriously bored.. just starin at the screen, not doing anything productive.. hahahha.. maybe i shld sleep.. i got 8am lecture.. wah seh.. terrible.. hahhahah..

i just watched "Howl's moving castle".. anime.. quite nice leh.. :D shld watch.. hhahahhaa.. but a bit complicated.. i think i got the part why howl was waiting for her liao... it seems like time travel.. so howl was waiting for her when he was young.. tt time he brought her to that place, she said she seem to have come before.. deja vu.. hmmm.. prob like howl was waiting for her all these years to bring his heart back.. most prob.. shld be.. complicated story.. hahhahah.. awaiting responses.. tell me if anyone knows what is howl's responsibility? alright.. :D



too late..
a continuation of the former...

yes i did my qt... n it struck me.. struck me deep..

proverbs 12:18
Reckless words pierce like a sword,
but the tongue of the wise brings healing.

i must have hurt my parents deep.. very deep.. haiz.. WHAT DID I DO? recklessness indeed..

wanted to apologise to my mother.. but but but... she went to sleep liao.. didnt get a chance.. maybe tmr i will have tt chance..

stomach aching.....................................



irritated..
scene: watching the jap serial "and i love u too" for the first time..


a few minutes into show, my stomach started aching like crazy.. had to go to the toilet.. cannot stand it anymore.. (speakin of it, it still hurts) had no choice..

f: "YING!!!" (while i m in the toilet)

me: "CAN U JUST SHUT UP... IM IN PAIN.. IN THE TOILET, URGH..."

f: "can u help me fill in the form, tmr i going to the office"

interupted by my father while watching tv

f: "oh ya, can u also print a copy of yr A level results"

doubly irritated by now, couldnt hear wat the tv was takin abt.. couldnt catch the jap spoken..

me berrating: "CAN U JUST LET ME WATCH MY SHOW.. WHY DO U ALWAYS HAVE TO TALK TO ME WHEN I WATCHING TV.."

my father just stood there like a log..

me speaking "nicely": "CAN U PLS JUST LET ME WATCH MY SHOW PEACEFULLY?"

when the show was abt to end in a few mins time, my mother banged on the front door.. i had to open the door for her.. n i said, "WHY DIDNT U JUST STAY OUTSIDE"...

den she started yadayadayada... didnt catch wat she said.. "CANT U SEE I M WATCHING TV???" so she kept quiet..

den i went upstairs and had to complete the stoopid form tt my dad handed me.. while filling it, my mother walked into the room... so i asked her nicely how to fill in this area.. den u know wat she said..

m: "huh, u dunno how to fill in this area.. u learn english one leh, u also dunno.. "

so i just snatched back the paper from her n said.. "FINE"

there was a pause. a moment of uneasy silence. she quietly walked out of the room.


upon a tiny bit of reflection.. sorry mum.. i didnt mean it.. haiz.. this is bad.. just becuz of a jap tv serial.. i had to shout at so many ppl.. waste my energy.. n den now i dun feel at all nice.. haiz.. watever.. i m sick and tired mentally.. haiz.. wat is going on ar.. wah seh.. now i know why.. i haven done my qt yet.. oh this is terrible.. i shall do it now.. haiz...