-unveiling glory- camp n stuff..
wow.. just a camp.. n i realise so many things have happened.. lawrence has been feeling unhappy n disturbed for half a month during the exam period.. -someone- confessed of his sin(watching pornographic sites) infront of so many ppl.. camp just ended.. dive camp is coming up.. hmmm.. time to do some reflection on my spiritual life n love life..

spiritual life:
-someone's- confession made me thought of the sin tt has been indwelling in me too.. tt is why i teared too when i heard his confession.. i guess the most hideous sins are not the murderer, saying lies, or even scolding someone.. but instead those done in the secret.. tis is also mention in the bible.. i m glad tt the -someone- is free now.. :D happy for tt person.. i dun think i will ever have the courage to do tt man.. anyway my sin is not watching pornographic websites, tt is stoopid.. haha.. i dun like porn.. but den tt sin which i committed, i dun think God is very happy either.. hence i stopped it.. which links with the next reflection..

love life:
tt sin has to do with lawrence.. i wont say much here.. but upon reflection, i have decided with lawrence to go our separate ways n we will not be together.. :D it was a great relief to have end it off.. although it resulted in givin me swollen eyes.. our relationship will not go as far becuz of tt sin.. n he blew it.. ppl have to keep thinking tt he is a nice guy.. well in fact he is just trying to be nice.. really.. how come i keep telling ppl n they still dun believe me.. make me so xin ku.. haiz.. anyway i had made a firm decision after much prayer with the Lord, i realise wat is most impt in my life.. to serve God.. its more impt than tan qing shuo ai.. which is super irritatin to me.. know?? only makes ppl sad.. makes ppl unhappy..

after the camp, it has definitely made me rethink of my walk with God.. i will keep in check n i know tt God has been with me all along.. tt God has been faithful.. it makes me feel blessed n at peace.. :D camp was great.. except i didnt manage to make more frens or else it will be as gd as COTL camp.. i miss it.. not becuz i knew joshua there.. but becuz of the numerous frens i have made n the enthusiasm tt i had during the trip..
during the camp, the 2nd day.. we saw COTL campers roamin the east coast beach.. i was deeply disturbed.. i could sense it.. i was disarrayed.. the shock of seeing joshua again freaked me out.. i was really disturbed n shocked.. den i saw tiang yue.. worse.. i immediately buried my head on the table.. i dun think he saw me.. after a few moments then i realised, why do i have to be like tt.. cuz i knew from martin tt jon wasnt there.. so i assumed if jon wasnt there, joshua will not be there either.. so all was well..
last night of camp.. i wanted to do a bit of relationship after i had come out front for wanting to be a missionary.. i didnt know wat made me came forward to the front.. but i did.. n that was the most impt decision tt i have ever made.. i think it will always be on my mind.. :D oh ya so i walked along the beach to do some soul searching.. i would think tt i will be thinking abt joshua a lot cuz tt was the place tt we visited on the last day of the year 2003.. but i didnt.. whoohoo!!! wat an accomplishment i felt.. haha.. i couldnt really concentrate.. i was thinkin of the similans trip more than anything when i look out at the sea.. :D n den abt lawrence a bit la.. cuz haiz.. not very gd.. ya lor.. prayed for a while.. but darren was there disturbing me.. hahah.. but it was ok already.. but den i had to leave cuz it was going high tide n it was getting chilly.. couldnt stay out long enough.. ha..

tmr i will be going over to jan's house for stayover.. n off i go to thailand.. dun miss me ppl.. :D i will rmb to buy prezzies for christmas.. yay!!