Wednesday, December 15, 2004 | 1:19 AM

craziness

sometimes i really dunno whether to be happy or sad.. one moment u can be very happy cuz u are with the one u like but the next moment u can be upset cuz he didnt do the things i like.. haiz.. m i petty.. most prob.. n i hate tt..

wat couple mentality combined with frenship behaviour.. i dun think its working now.. im getting freakin pissed at every single small detail.. stoopid idiotic me.. hate it.. but i cant help it.. haiz.. i m super hyper sensitive to small little stuff.. do i have to ctrl myself den.. urgh.. hate tis feeling.. hate it..

sometimes izit God trying to be funny or i m the disobedient one.. i think its the latter.. i really hate myself.. haiz.. i love being ard with lawrence.. really.. love it.. but reality has to set itself in.. he is not a Christian.. n i m really forcing things my way without consulting God again.. WHAT!!! haiz.. me n my reckless ways.. just as buddy says so.. dun be reckless.. yes i know.. haiz.. cant help it.. i hate it!!

i want to get out of the situation again.. i feel insecure.. like loads n loads of pairs of eyes staring back at me, watching my every move.. haiz.. buddy.. u r not alone.. :D but on the bright side, we have God.. n tt is the greatest n most comforting thing.. cant wait for mission trip..

forget abt the gruelling part.. get out of the self dwelling misery pit.. life is gd.. enjoy!! serve God.. tt is wat i wanna do.. :D

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