Sunday, November 07, 2004 | 10:04 PM

life sucks..

i know this doesnt sound alright.. n i m not suppose to say tt.. but it really sucks at this very moment..

imagine.. life w/o joshua.. wah.. sianz.. (stop harping on this stoopid subject.. *slaps ownself*) i think my wire loose liao.. haiz.. den still got one more stoopid essay to write.. n my grades for essays suck.. keep getting Cs as if it can help much to pull my grades up.. haiz.. exams coming.. stress.. haiz.. den got lots of things coming up.. Similans better be good at the end of this yr... or else.. haiz..

n abt Lawrence.. i realise we are getting nowhere.. cannot forget joshua.. n tt is a fact... dun think will forget in such a short while.. so still need plenty of time to recuperate.. haiz.. keep feeling sorry for lawrence.. poor thing.. kanna this type of girl aka me.. its really his bad luck.. haiz..

well well.. i shld start to wake up.. n really think of wat today's sermon talked abt.. abt "overcoming rejection".. i think i seriously have problems over rejection.. every word the preacher said was like God talking to me.. den i keep saying loudly in my mind : SHUT UP!!! Sorry Lord.. couldnt face up to the reality tt i m in.. urgh.. life sucks..

at JYM, pas fu man came to speak on "MISSIONS".. i feel inspired again.. but the joshua factor lingered.. urgh.. i have thought abt it.. i should start getting a life.. a life worth living for God.. n not harping on the joshua-will-nv-come-back-n-dwell-in-yr-own-misery attitude.. haiz.. URGH!!! GET OUT OF THIS STOOPID MESS... STOOPID GIRL!!!

i dun think it helps a lot.. haiz.. forget it.. just trying to vent my frustrations.. must be PMS..

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