Monday, August 23, 2004 | 10:46 PM
wat i learnt today...
Today, like every normal sunday, I go to the church. But today, its a bit different. Today's msg was by this CEO of the prison officers. What I learnt from him was to discern God's calling. I realised that I have not yet prayed for God's calling in my life. Strange... I thought I learnt it during SERVE programme, well, it seems it just shoot past my head. Maybe I was afraid God's calling might be different from what I had wanted to do initially. Izit I was afraid or I am just a norminal Christian where my faith does not substantiate what I need to do.
In JYM today, I learnt about the differences of being a true christian and a norminal christian. It struck me that I have been using my own strength in trying to be righteous. Oh no... deep reflection. God died for the sinners. I realised I am just nothing but God can still use me to spread his word. And I really want to do that but first I need to get my life straight. But is this necessary, what if by that time I had died. So when izit the right time to share the gospel? How will we know? When will we ever know? Urgh...
I wondered how long I will struggle with these issues? I saw David went up on stage for the altarcall(dunno spell correctly or not), so touched by him that he is willing to stand up for his faith, knowing what his life is heading for to receive God's calling in his life. Wah!!! Wonderful, so touched. But me, I sat at the back and cried. Cried because I did not even have the courage to step out of my comfort zone to tell God that, Here I am, I lay down my life for you. Today, we sang that song during worship, I really wonder how many of us really means it. (Sigh) When will I have the courage, why do I have the hesitation since I already gave my life to Jesus, or izit that I have not. I am so worried. (Sigh) So many thoughts running thru' my mind, must really take time to pray.
me-lazy bum...
Monday, August 23, 2004 | 10:46 PM
wat i learnt today...
Today, like every normal sunday, I go to the church. But today, its a bit different. Today's msg was by this CEO of the prison officers. What I learnt from him was to discern God's calling. I realised that I have not yet prayed for God's calling in my life. Strange... I thought I learnt it during SERVE programme, well, it seems it just shoot past my head. Maybe I was afraid God's calling might be different from what I had wanted to do initially. Izit I was afraid or I am just a norminal Christian where my faith does not substantiate what I need to do.
In JYM today, I learnt about the differences of being a true christian and a norminal christian. It struck me that I have been using my own strength in trying to be righteous. Oh no... deep reflection. God died for the sinners. I realised I am just nothing but God can still use me to spread his word. And I really want to do that but first I need to get my life straight. But is this necessary, what if by that time I had died. So when izit the right time to share the gospel? How will we know? When will we ever know? Urgh...
I wondered how long I will struggle with these issues? I saw David went up on stage for the altarcall(dunno spell correctly or not), so touched by him that he is willing to stand up for his faith, knowing what his life is heading for to receive God's calling in his life. Wah!!! Wonderful, so touched. But me, I sat at the back and cried. Cried because I did not even have the courage to step out of my comfort zone to tell God that, Here I am, I lay down my life for you. Today, we sang that song during worship, I really wonder how many of us really means it. (Sigh) When will I have the courage, why do I have the hesitation since I already gave my life to Jesus, or izit that I have not. I am so worried. (Sigh) So many thoughts running thru' my mind, must really take time to pray.
me-lazy bum...
Hello.
So do you wanna know more about the person who created this blogskin? by detail? check out.
The title had crossed my mind to do an entry because there's a question from variety peoples always asked the same things. I collected the questions since i was a small kids until now. The "question" is always same. So, i would like to share it with you. I also include about my blog k.
Your blog is really nice, how did you do that?
Actually, i always change my theme because i am a person who havva very quick feeling of boredom.
I cannot make things permanently -certain. I was at random when viewing others people blog on tumblr. I said T U M B L R only. So if their theme makes me attracted, i will make them as inspiration. Tadaa!
You looked pretty, are you mixed blood?
Haha. Yes I am (and i wonder how they know i was
‚ñß.‚ñ® ). People notice that by looking at my face (totally) and the way i talked?? LOL. Okay, my late grandfather (beside my father) is a
Thai. His family comes from Pattani, Thailand. But then my grandfather's family move to Malaysia because of several problem. My grandpa is a pure Thai,, naahh.. no wonder i love thai foods so much while my sister love to watch Thai's movies.
Furthermore, my late grandfather (beside my mom) is
Java people. Pure also. About his family background, they came to Malaysia to trade -Business :P
Why did your nose had a freckles?
This question is always asked by people since i was a small kids. Got answer above, i stated all there. Im mixed. stfu.
What kind of products did you use?
Hah this question lagi laa... Actually my face wasnt a flawless like a baby's skin. I do had a pimple problem when i was thirteen years old, but now not again. I just use the face cleanser -Shurah. and Mycin to prevent the pimple. Its pretty good.
What's the brand of cosmetics that you used?
For skins, i used Simply Siti. It's much better and very soft. Others like eyeshadow, lipstick, eyeliner, mascara and etc, i used L'elan Vital, include Simply Siti too.
What is you real name? and your real name is better than Lala. Why did you change that?
...........Five years ago, -at class.
Me: What do you think about a nickname? Any suggestion?
Classmate: Your name A-dil-la. So how bout we're take the last term. "LA" (doubled 'em)
Me: Lala?? Haha.. oh yah sure. I like it so much.
Classmate: But Didi also okay
Me: Nooo.. it sound like a boy's name !
Me: Okay okay.. Call me Lala start from now
Got it? Five years ago, no one named "Lala" in my school (SMK Rawang) but nowaday, double middle fingers up to them. I hate when people's nickname same as me. Grr! Certain people didnt know my real name. They know me as Lala :3 I dont use my real name because people always get wrong when spelling my name. I hate that. Just Lala okay.. Dilla (my real name) is only for family called and friends from ex-SK Taman Selasih.
Are you a die hard fans of pink?
Definitely!
----P/s : Maybe thats all. You can ask me on formspring. ‚ô´ Fiction....fiction... by Beast.
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just trying out tis thing whether it works or not...
haha.. k finally this thing works.. keke.. k .. i'm jus testing it now too.. will put more comments.. and add on to the Vibrancy of ye blog ca! :P
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